Purify heart

I came to this prayer n kinda like it

 Purify my heart, cleanse my inner thoughts and examine the very motives behind my acts and attitude, for I desire to live in the holiness of heart, and if there is anything that is displeasing to You in my life....

This write up is supposed to be published in year 2018, it was kept for 2 years just because i forgotten to publish it ... okay i am old 

I am often been told that I have been too open in sharing my life, my private issues ( i dont think i did) and many sensitive pieces on a public platform .. i wonder what kind of platform as i deactivated my facebook say like 4 years back mmmmmm. When I come to think of it, a smile rises to my lips. Not because I feel proud of being considered brave, but because I started this blog with full realization of the fact that i dont care lah .. n  who cares .. hell yeah 

The trouble any kind of blog/ insta/watsap stories would pose for me was, I wanted to start writing a daily diary ... Something that would register my life as it is in reality lah no sorok sorok  ... stop hiding the frustrations lah, no soaking up tears to pose as a strong girl .. , no airbrushed emotions, play happy life, no drama minggu ini lah, play hide n seek acah happy in reality hidup like crap ass..... all the pain, joy, hurt, bitterness, anger, innocence are everything in their true forms !!!

this blog of mine is a mission to let it out ... lantak la .. it may it holds much deeper meaning in my life than just telling the world what I went through, who I am, what am I made of and what life made me decide to do in my life circumstances... 

It has been 10 years since mak passed .. i still missed her dearly .. not a single day i have not been thinking about arwah .... love u mak