nasi ayam

introducing the crispiest nasi ayam in town only in Dato Keramat Kuala Lumpur ... One of the best chicken rice in KL unfortunately i don't really remember the name of this shop hahahahaha.. the roasted thigh was tender and cooked just right, maintaining a smooth texture. Coupled with savoury gravy, the meal was made even better with a seriously spicy chilli dip....oh my...not forgetting the the hati goreng

Its ridiculously delicious and cheap too. Though the ambience is less than encouraging...

when u only have ALLAH

DiKala Diri Ingin Menuju Ke Arah Jln Penghijrahan....DiSaat IniLah Berbagai Ujian & Rintangan Ku Lalui.Ya Allah.!!! Berilah Aku KeKuatan & Kesabaran..Ku Berperang Dgn Perasaan Ku Sendiri..Sesungguhnya Kau Permudahkan Segala Urusan Ku DiDunia Mahu Pun DiAkhirat Kelak ..Ya Allah..!!! Ampunkan Segala Dosa2 Ku..Terima lah Taubat Ku Ya Allah..!! Aamin..Ya Rabballamin.

sad but true

RUGBY PAYMENT

FROM A RUGBY MOMMY


Why do i spend so much time running around for my son to play rugby? n pay for his rugby equipment ?? oh yeah I have a confession to make.....I don't really pay so much for hilman's rugby training or his kit, pads, gum shield or boots. Or even the hundreds of rugby balls.

but these are the so call payment that i paid for his 5 beautiful years in mckk

I pay for my boy to learn to take care of his body. .. the sado-ing body built by carrying two buckets of water i assumed


I pay for him to learn to work with others and to be a proud, supportive, kind and respectful team member... which sometimes friendship can actually become hatred ....


I pay for him to learn to deal with disappointment, when he doesn't get that try he hoped for, or dropped the ball despite having practiced a thousand times, but still gets up and is determined to do his best next time... no try its ok ....



I pay for my boy to learn to make and accomplish goals.


I pay for my hilman to learn that it takes hours and hours and hours and hours of hard work and practice to create a champion, and that success does not happen overnight.... but he will always be my champion at home


I pay for those moments when he becomes so tired he feels like quitting but doesn't.. eventually few of the games he did quit ...apo nak dikato


I pay for the opportunity that my boy can have and will have to make life-long friendships especially the koleq'q true bonding


I pay for the chance that he may have amazing coaches that will teach him that rugby is not just about game plays but about life.


I pay for my child to learn to be disciplined...the last word sounds so cliche

I pay so that my son can be on the field instead of in front of a screen...

I could go on n on n on but it would end up annoy readers n to make it short, I don't "pay" for rugby.. I paid the opportunities that rugby provides my hilman to develop attributes that will serve him well throughout his life, and give him the opportunity to bless the lives of others. From what I have seen for many years, I think it is a great investment.... can lah...

the impromptu getaway

This is an impromptu overnight booking for a one night stay in an award-winning beach resort . Very much a family occasion, just the three of us ...i was just looking for a quick weekend runaway, before the weekday reality hits....especially Hannah is starting her new life as an Uni student .


i was in love with the scenery and its faces the Straits Of Malacca offering exquisitely designed rooms ranging from chalets to villas.. we stayed at the premium sea view chalet as u can see above ...its the premium water chalet which has a full frontview of the ocean.,,the one in blue glass house opposite is the exclusive spa... At the price of less than rm500 per night, it does come with a magnificent view of the light green coloured sea and breathtaking sunset. Designed with the architecture of a malay fishing village maybe but the best of all is sitting at the balcony doing nothing...Nothing beats the sea breeze and the waves sounds surrounding the room.


        

Our room's balcony view is the beautiful spa building with the seaview background ...ist it beautiful ??


what more unique about this place is actually the open air bathroom. The ceiling is exposed so we can actually see the bright blue sky plus listening to the waves while doing my own business ...

We love it for the fact that Hannah n Aqil can swim to their hearts' content and we can just relax and be assured that they are well taken care of. The hotel staffs are warm and friendly..We just love to stay at this water chalets as the sound of the waves during the nights and morning are music to the ears. Would definitely return again.. Overall it was another great holiday so far 

Sending my hannah to Segi University

Dropping my hannah off for the first year of uni should can be the most stressful, emotional and illuminating experience in my life but not for me apparently... we chose the most nearest to our home ...its like 5 minutes  away form our residence that is why i managed to save away all dramatic my tears ..... 

i was lucky this time as i am getting away of a loss syndrome as the first signs of parents unexpected emotions may come as early as their child receiving confirmation of their university place.. or maybe now at least for the next 2 years i know that Hannah will be stay put with me but later when Hannah is at her 3rd year of med school she will be based in Sibu Hospital i rather not to think about it now ......we will wait somehow  ....

Atok is everywhere 

Daddy meanwhile, often feel he can’t admit to his sadness down with their friends and so lack the support that mums often get...

Meanwhile after all, lots of positives to focus on. i know Hannah is the balanced, stable and friendly type, i am confident that she will manage, and yes i might have little less space at home and more mess plus more ways to the kitchen, There’ll also will be more waking up at 12 am to 3am when your child rolls in from a night out. the mommy the security guard @#$%^^&^@$%@%

just a piece of mind

I remembered something that I felt I should share, in case someone is also like me out there. I realized that when i am down with any ding dong nonsense I will start singing. There's something about singing a song that really means something to me, even i don't sing that well, intact i may crack the bottle anytime hahahaha but that just makes me feel brand new! The feelings that sometimes overtake me just melt away into song. Every once in a while it'll trigger those emotions that were about to explode out, and I jdont cry, i sing .....I let the weight of stress, worry, sadness, emptiness, and hopelessness wash over me. Then I let it go. 
God has blessed us all. Not many can do our job, and I really hope this reaches someone that it can bring peace to like it did for me.... thanks for reading

Last Day in Koleq

Apparently these boys of MCKK 1216 can finally scream it from the rooftops if they can.... their days as a high schooler are over!   They made it to the grand finale appearance in the hargreaves hall of mckk receiving their muffler from Cikgu Sabri and was overwhelmed with excitement, nostalgia, triumph n full of honoured.

How lucky they was, and for teachers who shared fond memories of their last day of high school.
Soon enough, a wave of sadness overcame them as their friends and I realized that it was their last day of high school. For the first time, the thought of leaving homework and 7.30a.m. classes behind made me tear up. 

i was at their ground that day watching them for the last time in school's uniform ... it's all the quick snapshot of the boys last day of school...it as a good fine day.. Fun and emotional moments for them.. all i can see was its quite hard for them to say goodbye to the school they have loved so much especiallybeen living in it for the 5 "miserable" years :) ;)
but for me i personally will be missing seeing so many handsome, cute n joyful faces that i am used seeing every months of my visit...

They're a loyal group of friends who felt the same happiness as I did with my friends on the last day of high school. Yes, they were sad to finish up the journey of high school, but they knew that loyal friendships can stay stronger even after graduation n till their last breath ahead.

 It was a wreck of departure.... mommy gonna miss u boys 

i choose simple if i can

yes lah... where last year my entire brain was snapped and I thought might change was what I wanted n finally this year I think i wany all about simplifying things....boleh ker nokkkk 

I want to to simplify the way I live and the way I handle my family but seems its getting worst than ever and most of the major thing i want to simply blogging..

Last year I felt my head was going to explode n pop with everything that I was trying to do and keep up with. All the different gossips, friends n family things, different ways to connect with people and all the things I thought I needed and should be doing in my entire life 

The reality is - I don't need to do it all and have it all and try to be everything and something to everyone,  I just can't and so we only get ourselves in a pickle even trying.... peanut

So this year, simplicity it is.

simple family connection

simply getting weird 

simple being mad to Hannah n Aqil ( i wonder how ??)

Simple eating.

Simple blogging.

Simple living.

Simple loving.

Simple connections... just a simple life. ....  fuck em all

That is what I hope I look back at this time of the year next year and say YOLAH I nailed that word!

Welcoming 2017

Let υs welcome the new year, give the happy adieu to the old,
Start the new beginning withοut fear and cherish the memοries we hold

 

life is life

Life is wonderful!  The hard work n dedication to our dreams will provide us with great peace n contentment.  Take time to enjoy quiet moments of reflection and leisure.  most of the times i feel free to buy myself small, luxurious gifts.  Earned the independence n enjoy .... these are my dreams...yet to fill my vanity fair chest drawer soon....  for now lets just copy n paste 

a little bit of breakfast hype

So I thought I’d show  a typical breakfast for me..First, I should say my pouch isn’t that different from others...i just love the food early in the morning. So this is the one that i am in love with...

dont u just love the picture of that egg...by the way what is egg pouch ?? Poaching is an indirect, moist-heat cooking method that calls for boiling an egg without its shell. As with soft- and hard-boiled eggs, poached eggs are usually significantly lower in calories and fat than scrambled, baked and fried eggs. ... but egg is still an egg ...u know what i mean ...

life is wonderful

I haven't written on blog here for a very long time. In fact, It's not that I haven't been writing at all on heart stuff, but i have lost my authority of this lappy to my girl hannah. huhuhu

and ever since,I just haven't had peace in posting much of it until now. I have literally dozens of post ideas written down, n about twenty articles saved in my drafts folder. its just that i always pray hard whenever Allah gives me the green light and final thoughts for each one n each mind ....

Ages and Ages - DIVISIONARY (Do The Right Thing) - OFFICIAL VIDEO

This song is about keeping yourself right even amidst darkness and negativity. For the video, we decided to portray this struggle through the story of a bunch of young kids who set out to make things right, but lose a part of themselves along the way. They may have started off on the same path and with good intentions, but their struggle reveals varying agendas and leads them in very different directions.

Do the right thing do the right thing
do it all the time do it all the time
make yourself right, never mind them
don't you know you're not the only one suffering
I see you up again wandering so diligently
crossing your t's as though it weren't irrelevant
they say formality, this is what they really meant:
they can be the walk and we can be the pavement
Do the right thing do the right thing
do it all the time do it all the time
make yourself right, never mind them
don't you know you're not the only one suffering
So what you're up against all the disingenuous
They wave you along and say there's always room for us
But we know better than that to take'em serious.
Still don't let'em make you bitter in the process
And when the light is up, this is how oughta be
We'll make it alright, they'll come around eventually
They say it's nothing but that ain't the reality
They may take us on but they can never take us easy
Cuz they ain't moving, they're just moving around
So if you love yourself, you better get out now
I hear a higher calling
Better here than there I guess
so long

Nothing like being sick

Nothing seems to truly work on this strain of the flu...Well, being sick as early as in new year can wasn't a good start i presumed. ... 

At first I thought it must have been food poisoning, given the sudden onset and full stomach evacuation. Then I was up half the night with coughing fits. Then I was beset by intense congestion. There was the day when sneezing was the main event. I couldn’t sleep because I kept running to the bathroom every night... 

I got dehydrated that my feet and calves cramped up as I was heaving out my guts. I would break out in a cold sweat each time and would lay on the bed shivering. ..I’m still dehydrated and I can’t force myself to eat for the life of me. 

But so far today is better… I am actually drinking a hot plain tea or a cup of hot milo n right now I have enough energy to type this up.

       I am just so sick of feeling like this n just want my normal life back !!!!!!! ... n I hope everyone else survived the new year. U all stay healthy out there.

Happy New Year 2015

Very often we hear about New Year resolutions and I have also tried making New Year resolutions as well.... Basically a New Year resolution is made when one wants to correct the mistakes they have done the past year or do something in a more organized manner.

I have also made resolutions before, but just like anybody else, I too break it up. But this time I am going to stick to my resolutions and make sure that I change myself.....

I have noted down a few resolutions that I would like to take this year and stick onto them. I would like to be a good reader. I have heard that reading is a good habit, but I hardly take the time to read, even if I have plenty of time. So this time I have decided that I would spent some time in a day to read some matter or a book that would improve my knowledge and interest in reading....the only problem i have is i have a silly sleepy eyes....

Another area that I would like to improve myself is with the maximum excess time how i spent on the internet. Hours together I sit in front of the system, though I know it is just wasting my time unnecessarily....i am the kind who loves doing the googling out of the moon... I have decided to cut down the time I use for surfing and make it more productive, rather than just visiting social networking sites and chatting.

Along with the internet, the other electronic item that has addicted me is the cell phone. I spent hours talking over the phone, not realizing the harmful effects it causes and waste my time and money. I have decided to cut it down only for essentials and spent the remaining time for some useful work or to spend more quality time with my family...what a game to bring it on...

This time, I am determined to stick to my resolutions and get myself corrected to be a more better person, both for myself and to the society.

oh and another damn serious matter just came across my mind just to add more....Seriously, My hope is that my 2015 year will be full of laughs shared by the entire family and friends beyond!

Akim & The Magistrate Mewangi Akustik

he is the one

THE EXPERIENCE

Our own life is a great teacher as we never really ever stop learning from our own experiences in life.  There is a quote that goes: “A wise man learns from the mistakes of others, a fool learns from his own mistakes”  I had heard another quote version of this same quote and so I went looking for it online as I actually thought that it went like this: “A wise man learns from his own mistakes, but an even wiser man learns from the mistakes of others”  For the longest time this is how I would quote this and I would add that the world is full of simply wise n good people and not so many the wiser ones, as i tend to have to learn things through my own experience.

I would agree that if we are really smart, we will the word of those who have had certain experiences and learn to avoid the same mistakes through their testimony.  But unfortunately it just doesn’t seem to go this way most of the time. My child-like curiosity can get the best of me and i will just have to see for myself  if it will work out or not (whatever lah it may be). This why it is said that experience is the best teacher, in fact, maybe i would try to run into a brick wall i usually  go a different way the next time around.....

While growing up it  i seems to be not to take people’s word for things and to have a buying desire to prove other’s wrong, especially if they assert authority over me. But then, as time goes on, i start to figure that it might have been a lot better if i had paid attention to the teacher who had been there and done that in order to save myself a lot of time and sometimes grief.  There can tend to linger on a certain pride that battles with having to give in and finally  accept that someone else just might know what they are saying. Sounds wierd huh?  more often than not want to be right, sometimes even when i am wrong....Oh my...

I believe that wisdom shines its light on us when we finally realize that we are not actually the everything in n that i need to pay attention to others on certain topics.  It is wonderful how i wish i can have such a vast array of talent and intelligence around m from whom to draw n step in...  i just need to use this and allow wisdom to become my destiny..... Thats all....

           This breathtaking picture was taken in Baling, Kedah

morning love

It is difficult to measure love, and I believe that a lot of the love that is shown on a day-to-day basis can tend to get overlooked. My hubby is not been Mat Jiwang or Mat Bunga with flowers in his hand, or an outstanding poem or song written for me . Unfortunately for me, he is sort of more the “simple guy” who shows his love by being there on a day-to-day basis attempting to do those many needed tasks or errands to render life at least a wee bit easier for me. even he can be grumpy most of the time.


Have been married or together with someone for so very many years, this demonstration of love can appear to be neglect. It is not seen so “extraordinary” or “special” anymore since i can grow accustomed to it and lose appreciation for the one who is and has been there for you through thick and thin. That is why for so many, i feel as though i have “lost” that love and are no longer able to see it for what it really is. But in today’s world, it means a great deal! All too often people run away in search of that romantic "nora danish n bossned" dream life, leaving behind them what was actually real love all along!


I can never give too much love, that is true…but you will most likely never feel as though i had too much. It is in the little things day by day that love needs to be manifested, received, appreciated in order to recognize that i have never ever lost what i need and desire, i just need to look at it in the right perspective.

I am glad we have Valentines Day....The day of love, in which everyone is scrambling to do something special for that special someone in their lives! ...The only thing i never get enough of is love; and the only thing i never give enough of is love......

the feeling to blog again

“Life is not lost by dying; life is lost minute by minute, day by dragging day, in all the thousand small uncaring ways.”  ~Stephen VincentBenét

I guess sometimes we really don’t appreciate things until they are long gone!  We live our lives as if we will be here forever, and then such as happened to me when my mom's passing n it my whole life has changed, or in some cases it has ended!   This could be you!

A time of reflection is healthy and often occurs when something devastating happens just around the corner.  But it would be wise to have this karma each and every day!  Just think, what if i didn’t show just how much i appreciated my husband or child or friend yesterday, and i wake up to find that they are missing through an accident or disaster? ....hmmmm I often think of where i have failed so miserably in times such as these, but in the hustle and bustle of the day, i may tend to largely ignore or take for granted those we live and work with....

I would be better off living as though today was my last.  Be there for others, i always show appreciation, give a hug, be kind because tomorrow may never come for them, or even for me.  This is a reality that i often choose to ignore since it is an unpleasant thought, but the world would be a better place if i all had this mindset.....anyway i love everyone who loves me back ..... its a silly starting but i call it asa a warm up .....

Afgan: OST. Bukan Cinta Biasa

Melly Goeslow - Gantung | Lirik

Adam Ahmad-Kau Pergi Jua(HQ Audio)

Sometimes its so hard to pen down my thoughts because some words even are not enough to describe the way i felt.  After the passing of my mom i can say that the last 10 years were the most exhaustive years of my life but in a way I am kinda of enjoyed every bit of it.  Spending more than 7 hours in hospital and then staying up late nights is something which I am surely going to miss. Being that one girl in the family group and then being burdened by sleepless nights (i know it happened a lot since hubby don’t work they try to give excuses and then butter you up!) is surely going to be missed.

Now that I have got some free time for myself ...I’ve been lazing around and doing all sort of crazy and stupid things… from nothing to everything. I guess sometimes a vacation really brings me back to life but I guess its time now to end this vacation and start doing something more useful and productive which is going to help me out, so yes time to fix myself up and get going!

I finally into all social networking and love how I can see the exalted talent filled in people, I wish I was as talented as some of the photographers and creative people I see on and around the internet such as facebook, Twitter, instagram, Pinterest and bla bla bla..

I remember I had write a blog post a few months back all about myself n I still stick by my opinion and even noticed responses of people supporting the same. Blog has been able to catch up and compete Facebook but one thing I’ve realised over the time and my existence on instagram for sure has become quite famous and has generated quite a lot of fans. A lot of my friends who joined twitter recently have totally got themselves addicted to it and I guess they visit twitter more often than they visit Facebook these days. 

But Facebook and Twitter are on different levels I suppose and they’re going to be that way, currently my favourite instagram ...and that’s all for now!

life a lesson

Sometimes when we pray for Allah to direct our footsteps and prosper us and all the while we have forgotten to pray about our own social circles. Well even if we forget about that, Allah is still amazing. He will work on it and people and places that will stunt our destiny won't be able to cling to us. And so it makes sense if there is a says said: "Sometimes Good Things Fall Apart So Better Things Can Fall Together".

And sometimes outward appearances are deceiving. The most confident appearing one could be the one suffering from low self-esteem. No one is perfect. Don't let appearances fool you. Take time to unpeel the layers of those around you so you can connect and help each other with different struggles.....

Adele - Love Song (Lyrics) - HD

 Love Song

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you 

Its my day

Everyday at 7 in the morning, and I'm still in bed, agonizing over having to go into house chores. My cell in my body seems to be complaining about it, my heart feels heavy, and yet my mind which drives my guilty conscience, my sense of obligation somehow will drag me out of bed and into the morning breeze. My thoughts, words and actions are not in harmony.
I am grateful for my life - it always gives me freedom, comfort, and at home even most of my weekends i will be away ...and that's what keeps me chained to computer for hours and hours each day. And i love being in front of this devil gadget ....So I'm giving away my freedom of one kind to gain freedom of another kind. It always make sense. And yet I continue on in this way, day after day, year after year, and pretty soon my life is gone.....My hope it wont be that soon ...maybe i am gone in 25 years later.. Is this my destiny? It might have been, but destinies can be changed, can't they? Maybe i can create my own destiny. I think that's when I can transform myself from a tree, into becoming a piece of the a big tree...giving shelter to human being.... Is that audacious? I don't think so - that's what I'm meant to be. That's what I'm seeking, longing for, life after life. Is this the lifetime where I might discover that part of me - my inner platinum - so I can let go of the beautiful shell? I hope so......

My Payed

The truth is i have tons of nice thing to share with readers about my anak angkat name Payed....
Well the truth is I am the kind of 100% devoted to my own children...i may have load of good things to spit out about my very own child.. I am a generous mother by the way but mostly all meant to my Hannah n Aqil.. I see other kids as a normal item selling on the rack ..by all means i just love my own child....

But as time goes by, i have been following the MCKK rugby team all over their tournament as non bergaji photographer i met many of the school's rugger until early of last year during the MCKK Premier 7 2013 my eyes was stuck amazingly watching one particular boy who plays rugby very well..  

I was amazed at the opportunities that Allah has provided for him. Knowing that he has such an amazing opportunity to showcase that joy, to push beyond his limits and to stretch himself past even what he thinks is capable of is an amazing, amazing boy....no kidding...that was the first time i am falling into him...hahahahaha...yes that is the time i knew his name is Payed...mmmm...super nice feeling....moms feeling though !!!

The thing is during any time of his rugby game anytime anybody will throw him the ball, Payed will grab on to it with the vigor and strength of youth n he will run n run . Payed will run hard n its remind me of Forrest Gump. He will breathe from deep down inside. Payed will plant his feet gently n firmly n he will keep his eye on his destination right to the pole n being aware of the obstacles in his path. If ever he is knocked down, there are those on his team who will surround him and keep him safe, not only, but they’ll do everything they can to keep that ball moving....amazing super amazing

The one that i keep salute n wonder about Payed is every time if he fails, he’ll get back up.
If he trips, he’ll focus on regrouping, getting his confidence back up and moving forward.

When the team wins, he will win with honour. And when the team loses, because every team does, he will accept that with grace and plan for next time...It’s who he is. It’s what he is trained for.
But he’s the player on the field.
For my eyes only...those who feels i am exaggerating, too bad.....i dont owe anyone explanations !!!!

I will always see the back of those big shoulders as he walks away n giving me the sweetest smile........and i hope its all gonna be alright for my Payed

I will always be his n his team mommy angkat n will always cheer and wave and hug and release u for better life ahead exactly like what i did every time during his rugby game....All the best my boys

As excited n proud as I am of how hard Payed worked out,  how determined he is n how truly loyal and devoted he is to his MCKK team n as much as I know that the next number of days will be filled with watsap n texts informing me the scores and plays, the excitement and bonding of teammates that are in what is, for most of them this is their last year together…

Mmmmm.....thus my mommy's love towards Payed is plentiful n hopeful, I see this incredible future that I know, I pray Allah has planned out for him, this opening in the world n in life and in all that ever was and all that will ever be with Payed's name on it.

And my prayers for him hoping that tomorrow is well, it’s today, now. And today my son, the man, 

will head to another journey to live his joy.

And experience the joy and momentary pain of letting go and placing my anak angkat again and again and again the hands of a good good Allah who saved and salvaged our lives. May Allah bless u Payed for the rest of your lives.....Mommy will always loves u so much .....