My worst asthma attack would have been quite recently. Sometimes sitting on the couch, just watching tv or hooking to computer even if i am having shower and I started to cough, and just couldn't stop. This went on for about two or three minutes maybe.. I couldn't breathe for a few minutes,I felt on my knees grabbing my throat; I swear someone had a rope around my neck. I couldn't breathe at all. I swear those were my last moments....( but i still wants to see hannah n aqil graduation u see), to think of that,I normally quickly got up and ran towards to my handbag and got my inhaler. I now carry it around the majority of the time, just in case. I'm glad I was at home when it happened though.
I had my asthma just a couple of years back around maybe 2009 or 2010...it started gradually .. i got a lot of long episodes of coughing, shortness of breathe, and figured it was a respiratory virus. Mostly when i had a chronic cough, worse at night, triggered by cold. Cold weather is a definite trigger. Coughing sometimes got so bad it led to chest pain and wheezing. And maybe couple times in the past few years too i had episodes of emotional stress...that was the time arwah my mom health was deteriorating, mostly a year in a row she spent most of her time in the hospital. I am so lucky having my abah still in good health and shape and taking a good care of arwah though.. So, I thought that those were panic attacks that contributes the intense and constant coughing....Even going out for an afternoon of errands led to a couple days of light fever, and a lot of interference with daily activities. I did think about going to a doctor, but didn't. It got bad so gradually too.
I always had good days back there then even i have to rush juggling my time with arwah mom and my kids study time table, and somehow it was easy to convince myself I was fine, and just imagining things. When it got a lot better after that, I just forgot about it. Still had minor coughing, especially at night, but when the pain and and wheezing went away, and I figured it was some kind of a normal cough. I guess I forgot how bad it was in the cold time especially on rainy days, and I was embarrassed to be coughing all the time.... :(
Then one day, everything went wrong. The weather was terrible. Extreme shortness of breathe. Tight chest. Huge amounts of mucous choking me. Wheezing and coughing. Normally when I had an attacks like that, that would always get better, but never quite went away this time around. By the time I got to a doctor I could barely walk. I couldn't say more than two or three words together without coughing or gasping. ..i went to see my so call family doctor (Dr Rozimah) and she diagnosed me asthma... i was quite shocked a bit but i am strong enough to accept the fact that i am an ashmatic patient. She prescribed ventolin inhaler to me during my breathing difficulties to assist the airway flows. Now i am depending on very much to this ventolin inhaler.
Nowadays, I used my asthma as a crutch for many years, saying, "I can't run, I have asthma." Or, "I can't stay on in a very cold room temperature, I have asthma." " i can't lift up heavy bags or thing, i have asthma ." And while to a certain extent i think i am handicapped...hahaha
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