My dad's younger (and only) brother was tragically killed during a car accident on April 19, 2012 and I've spent the day in shock over the loss of an amazing relative. To me he was always my quirky relative with tons of joker, stories, gossips and comical and above all else, friends. When I was a kid, he was the coolest guy with the coolest jokes. He always had something new to show me. He had the coolest in every little thing he has and even if it wasn't cool, he was always so excited by it that it became cool. Thats the real of arwah. Arwah pakcik Ri.
In more recent years, he was the coolest uncle because he would do the coolest things to get my children, his grand nephews and nieces to smile, giggle, laugh, and sometimes even get the hiccups. He was a retired newsreader from RTM , He was one of the early News Reader on TV Malaysia as RTM was known then. He was a mentor, and a great friend to anyone that ever knew him and he will be sorely missed by anyone that would call him a friend.
It's still so shocking to me how quickly he was taken. I had just been on daily chores and only to jet out telephone call from my beloved cousin Ardi . And as quickly as I had returned home after hearing this devastating news. I've lost a few relatives recently, but they have all been terminally ill or elderly, and although related, not nearly as close as my arwah pakcik ri..
He loved telling jokes; he always had a plethora of terrible jokes from his memory and ready for you the instant you walked through his door, so if you so feel like it, tell someone you know an absolutely terrible joke in my arwah pakcik Ri's honor. I'm sure he would get a kick out of it.
The last loss of this magnitude was over 3 years ago, when my mom passed away. I remember the morning of her death vividly, as well as the wake, funeral, and burial, and I still remember it being as near as crushing as this. It was an absolutely integral part of my life, but it was the end of a fight with an illness .
This, by contrast, came out of nowhere, and I can't help myself from crying over and over. I cried as this much over a loved one, and I don't know whether it is because it was so out of nowhere, or because I have a family of my own now and see the world in a completely different light. But I do know that I will miss my arwah Pakcik Ri horribly for years to come.
It's funny the little things that you think about in these times. I cherish the wonderful memories with arwah, yet every time I've looked at it tonight has reminded me that there will be no more Pakcik Ri visiting me at home. It's all so real and so surreal at the same time.
MY DEAR UNCLE
So many thoughts,
in my head.
So many things,
left unsaid.
You left that day,
without a glance.
Never knowing ALLAH,
wasn't giving you a second chance.
What was in your head,
the last moments you had.
I hope you though happy thoughts,
and not sad.
No one can evertake your place.
Your image in my heartwill never erase.
As you smile one me from up above.
My mind is still sadbut my heart is filled with love.
I love you dear uncle you meant the world to me.
I'll always make you proud of me you will see.
Two weeks before the fatal motor accident
My dad, makcik Nor and arwah pakcik Ri
Arwah's "work station".....
He was my favorite uncle whom I used to love most among everyone else. He was so close to me and my family and always loved by everyone around him.
inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raj'un, may Allah grant arwah pakcik Ri among the highest stations in paradise and may He give you and your family and all who loved him patience and trust in Allah's Will.
InshaAllah he's in a better place than we are.
I cannot find the words to fully express my condolences to his family, children and close friends, but those who knew him are definitely comforted by the knowledge that he is with God. I pray this understanding gives them all a sense of joy and peace, even as they grieve the loss of his physical company.
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